Yay! Finally had the long overdue hobbits gathering ;D Chris, Claire and Jane came over for dinner *huge grin* Was wonderful to talk to all of you again! Thanks for the cake, Claire! T'was a lovely surprise :) *huggles* And domo also to Jane for the slides from Germany, and to Chris for the presents from Australia, and the soup ;) Can't wait for the stayover at Chris's place ^__^ Shall bring lots of nailpolish and glitter XD Yay, can see the WCIII ending, and watch Wolf's Rain ;D
Nothing much else to say ^^ Except am not going for Japanese tomorrow XD Have gotten fed up of going... Still like learning the language, but feel very reluctant to go these days...
Yay, Chris, Claire and Jane coming over for dinner =) Haven't seen for a while. Cousin and uncle will be coming down from Malaysia to stay for a day or so. Cousin's here for NUS Med interview. Haven't seen her in almost a decade ^^ Am obviously not very close to relatives... did not get along that well the last time we met. Will probably share my room with her, though.
Have been on a Ratal writing spree this week. Wrote VSD on Mon, and a songfic entry on each Tues and Wed for the musical. *braindead now*
Finally finished Mae's (belated) birthday present, a pic of one of her charas. Posted on dA, along with an illustrated version of the short poem from a couple of blog entries ago.
Strangest occurance of the day:
Got a phonecall from Mrs. Lee - as in the former VJ principal - at home O.O Apparently she'd suddenly thought of me yesterday, and had rung up the school to see how i'd done for the 'A's. It was nice of her to call, though a bit scary ^^
Should sleep now. Am writing very fragmented sentences, and the paragraphs don't connect at all ^^;
eheh, editted code to leave out a certain flouncing faery's name XP
Your Ideal Guy Is Legolas Greenleaf! He's the strong, silent type with long blonde hair that you're just dying to curl in your fingers, sexy high cheek bones, pointed ears that just beg to be nibbled and the well-toned arms of an archer that are just raring to sweep you off your feet and carry you to his bed chamber...we're sure he's quite ready to show you *his* arrows...
*stunned speechless* What the -bleep-?! *wails* Hot my foot! More like makes me see red =_=;
You're the speed demon himself, Pietro Maximoff. You live for the rush and you never back down, because you are, of course, a god. Although you come off as a spoiled rotten brat to some people, you simply seek approval within yourself only because you feel you can't gain it from others.
You're the mysterious gothy, Rogue. You're a loner and rather sarcastic, but deep down you have a heart of gold. You don't connect easily with people, in fear that you'll hurt them. But deep down you wish you could be close to somebody. You're one tough cookie, and you'd like to keep it that way.
You are Storm!
You are very strong and very protective of those you love. You are in tune with nature and are very concerned with justice and humanity. Unfortunately, certain apprehensions and fears are very hard for you to overcome, and can often inhibit you when most need to be strong.
Wrote this last Thurs, but forgot to post... Haven't been able to write since last year, oddly. Well, except for Ratal stuff ;P Thought that once school was over, i'd actually write more ^^ *kicks AWOL muse* Not even a good poem, this >.<
Hold me just for a moment now,
If I can make it through tonight, somehow,
I know I'll be able to carry on,
Though the music fades and the dancers are gone
For, within me, shall bloom evergreen,
What once was, and might've always been,
If Fate had deigned to be more kind;
Yet the nimblest fingers, Her threads can't unwind.
So hold me close, this one last time,
And help this foolish heart pretend,
As you press your cheek to mine,
That our simple will, Time could suspend.
~sigh~ Waiting for the incredibly slow Cygwin to download, so figured i might as well dust off this blog... The program that's downloading is for me to practice writing C programs. Yes, i'm learning programming :P eheh, from Triple Science in Sec. school, to Arts in JC, and now to IT/Business for uni (assuming i get in) ^^ Would have liked to do something art-related, perhaps, but it's not practical in this country... Besides, if i had to do art for a living, that might kill my love for it. And the ISM course does sound very interesting ^_^
Because i'm too braindead to write anything creative for this entry (see! Even for a blog i can't come up with something interesting to say, what hope would there be if i chose a career in the arts? @_@;) i shall just run down what's been going on this past week or so...
Sunday 20th The first Ratalie gathering! Okay, gathering of four of the Ratalie ^_^; Specifically, Dae, Elear, Eleris and Serry. It was very fun... =^.^= Wonder what the people who developed Chris' photod thought when they saw them! Ohohoho! *cough* hee, thanks to Mae, most of them didn't have a problem getting to my house - except for poor Dae ^^; *hides under rock* Am pathetic at directions in S'pore. RPed, ate, talked, took photos (or in the peredhil's case, videos too ^^) and wrote Trash. One of which was strangely unified. Great minds think alike ;D Can't wait for the next meet up! *grin*
Monday 21st SMU interview day @_@ Wasn't as bad as it could have been, i suppose... Interview was conducted in groups, so it wasn't so scary, in a sense. It lasted for about an hour, after which we had to write a short essay (length didn't matter, they said). Topics were something like:
1. Describe the most memorable challenge or decision you have had to make
2. Imagine you are an ant. People, humans hate you. Write an account of how one human treated you.
3. What is your definition of "home"?
*lol* Ended up writing no. 2. Didn't know what to say for the others anyhow *shrug*
Tuesday 23rd Met with the rest of the first fundraising committee after lunch. Things finally seem to have started taking shape! Discussed lots of ideas :) Went to Marina Square afterwards, to register for the comp lessons i'm now taking (only 3 days, thank goodness, but from 9-5 *faints*) and then went for Illustration.
Wednesday 24th Last illustation class... A bit sad. i did enjoy it, tiring though it was... 3 hours each session. Just like my Japanese lessons and Chinese Brush painting, actually ^^;
Thursday 25th Fundraising group came over so we could discuss and type out the proposal. Finished much faster than we'd anticipated ^^ Now all we need is to get Mrs. Chan's approval, then we can start with our preparations... *hopes we get her nod*
Friday 26th Slacked most of the day, then did Japanese homework :P
Saturday 27th Japanese day... Was feeling rather blah. Played a game for part of the lesson, where the winner wouldn't have to take the next week's mini test - a great incentive for all of us, as you can imagine ;D hee, i won... but i won't be going for this week's lesson anyhow, because of the short story workshop =_= Irony...
Sunday 28th Had Chinese Brush Painting again. Finally finished the peony painting, after goodness knows how long... Took about 4 lessons, i think. Started on another piece, sunflowers this time. Spent one and a half hours painting dots for the flower centers - and it's still not finished @_@ Was starting to see spots everywhere... *will not make bad pun about going dotty otherwise... oops, too late* The instructer decided to let me move on to the petals first, thankfully. After the 1.5 hrs of dotting.
Mae came back! *glomps* Will miss you when you leave for UoS ;_; Who will i bug late at night? XD But i'm happy for you, since you got the course you wanted :)
Went for the first C programming lesson. Left the house before 8am, returned close to 9pm... Lesson was from 9+ to 5+, actually. We were there so early that the shopping center wasn't even really open. All the shops were closed and the escalators weren't in operation yet. The class wasn't too bad... could understand what was going on. Two more days to go =_= Then will start Java on 19th of May...
Art Somehow, managed to do or at least start a few art pieces this past week ^^Shameless plug time :P
A request for Kitsunedajfox of dA, her chara Su Chang.
Finished off the Lego pic at last... Made a wallpaper out of it too. *mutters about nancing elves and dodges furious fairy's fangirls*
o.O Still not finished d/ling... Oh well, shall wait a while more, then sleep. Another early day... must wake at 6+ >.< Not used to that these days, though that's very late compared to the time i used to wake while still in school. Argh, my grammar's going. Or gone. =_= And it's still downloading...
Yes, i'm finally updating this blog XD Added a link to Emil's blog and Serry's dA page in the sidebar :)
And a very belated thank you to Angelus for the birthday greetings ;P
Have been unable to blog for several reasons - other than laziness, that it :P Japanese homework, parents restricting my nightly usage of the comp and the new Ratal forum. Am thus spending even more online-time on that obssession :P The log and forum have undergone a revamp, courtesy of the wonderful, artistic Mae *huggles her* Have tried making or at least altering the forum's default buttons, to suit the new layout. Also spent some time oekaking, and trying to CG the new Ratal pic drawn on my birthday. If anyone's actually interested, click here. eheheh, self promotion :P
Now the important stuff has been dealt with, i'll proceed to the usual ramble ^-^
Went for dinner at Raffles City today as a family. Bumped into Miss Poon on the way to the Food Court, which has been renovated recently. Looks quite space-agey now; brighter with mostly light colours, to make it look more spacious. Many of the stalls have changed too. After dinner, we happened to see a fashion show, showcasing the works of some students from a certain local art school in the atrium. The theme was food. The first pair of students' inspiration was salad. Really. The next was American food - to quote the announcer, "...roast beef, hotdogs and french fries..." Didn't do it to be mean, but i couldn't help giggling everytime the themes were announced. Well, to be fair, the sources of inspiration were quite easily distinguished, so i suppose they were somewhat successful... The third student's designs were based on European cuisine - pasta, fish and chips, seafood (^^;) Following that was Asian cuisine, using ideas from food like "sushi and kim chi". One of the models looked like she was wearing massive parsley sprigs on her shoulders; another like she was a walking, life-sized maki o.O We stopped watching after that. Heard that the next set was based on S'poream food. Wonder what that've looked like... Fashion based on food is quite a novel idea, i suppose, but really, i'd rather not look like what i eat ^^; Oh, talking about food, there's a stall in the food court that sells durian chee cheong fun(sp?)! ~sigh~ Getting hungry, with all this talk of food... *lol*
Went to a pet farm yesterday after Japanese, to look at puppies ^_^ They were so adorable! There was a white long-haired Chihuahua. It looked so lost and sad; according to the owner of the establishment, he'd just arrived from Australia the night before. Though now that i think of it, he probably didn't - animals have to be quaranteened upon entering the country, don't they? hmph. All the dogs were so sweet. There was one in the cage below the Chihuahua's that looked a bit like a wolf. Very chubby, he was, like a furry bolster ^o^ Had such short legs too, which only added to his comical appearance. Then there was a beautiful little white Maltese beside him. My sis really liked that dog. He was really cute - kept smiling at everyone! i think she wanted to get him, but we were all worried about how Brownie woould react. To say that he's territorial would be putting it mildly... Such a small dog with such strong lungs >.<; Keeps barking at bigger dogs, even tries to lunge at them, when he's taken outside. i swear that dog has body dismorphia ^^; But he's lovely and sweet most of the time ^_^ *huggles Brownie*
Claire came over the other day, to borrow the paper flower making book. Congrats on making your first rose, girl! ;D Bet you'll be an expert in no time :) Noticed with some amusement that we were both wearing VJ apparel: she was wearing an orientation t-shirt, while i was wearing the shorts. heh, i hate wearing shorts, but that's something my mom doesn't need to iron, at least ^^ Have made up my mind to only buy clothes that don't require ironing, next time, so i won't have to =P Would save electricity too. And money on medical bills, if i accidentally burn myself XD
hmm, what else? Finished reading the Two Towers today, at last. Haven't read much since returning from Australia. Spending far too much time on the comp :P *glances at clock* Better get off now, before parents come in and scream =.=
Yes, i'm still alive =P Haven't felt like blogging for a while, thus the long absence. Still don't feel like blogging, but supposed i should, since today was my birthday. Have just entered the last year of my teens... A lot of things have happened in the past year... some unfortunate, but many good. Perhaps i'll list some of them in the next post =P
For now, i'd just like to give thanks for and to all the wonderful people in my life :) You know who you are ;D Thank you to Mae for the cute, funny Flash e-card, Serry for the oekaki Chris, Claire and Cherie Dee for the birthday wishes, and to my family, even if they don't read this :P
In other news: Finished the Ratal drawing of Elear, Isilme and Serry. Might post it at deviantArt ad rendo later. Or not, if too lazy XP
Another deluge of quizzes, from Angelus' and Chris' blogs :)
12 inches, yew and stardust. Flexible, unique, mysterious. A Gregorovitch wand no doubt, with remarkable workmanship and beautiful... even if it does have a tendency to get as lost in dreams as it's owner.
No! Why must the prancing pixie be in the pic? >.< gah.
Everyone has their own path in Tolkien fandom, and who is to say who is right and who is wrong? You listen to all sides and draw your own conclusions. There's a little bit of truth to be found in every point of view. In your refusal to claim that any one faction has the exclusive claim to Tolkien Truth, you tend to end up getting flamed by them all.
Yes, i'm alive =P Was away from the 28th Feb to the 9th of March, then not in the mood to blog after coming back. Don't really feel like writing now, either... but i don't want this to end up like the other blog - ie. dead :P
Went to Sogo... Raffles City, i mean; still used to calling it Sogo, after all this time... for dinner. Ate at Out of the Pan *grin* Had the Yum Yum Mushrooms with sun dried tomato flour, as usual. Felt as stuffed as my crepe had been, after that ^o^ Walked about the shopping centre after that. A lot of Japanese boys there today. Possibly on a school trip, but they were in home clothes. As my sis said, unfortunately there weren't cute ones =P
Quote of the day: *tips hat to Chris for the idea ;)*
"Life is an eternal manhunt." - also courtesy of my sis ^^
Not that she needs to worry, since she's the pretty, gregarious one ^o^ It doesn't bother me. Maybe it's because i'm still young enough not to care. Perhaps one day when my biological clock starts ticking... if i have one ^^ Ah well, as the saying goes, i'll cross that bridge when i come to it. Or burn it XD mwahahaha, mixing metaphors is fun. Stop staring at me :P
Drew a sketch of a mermaid this afternoon, out of boredom. Didn't come out the way i'd wanted, but it's not my worst drawing - though not the best, either. *sigh* Am sounding very convoluted these days... Will CG it before posting the link, unless i get fed up and give up, in which case i'll post the link to the sketch.
It's a full moon tonight - the second or third night, i think. Has a mellow, yellowish cast now, like old paper that's been weathered by time and sunlight. It was incredibly bright yesternight. i love looking at the stars. One Valentines day... 1997 or 98, i think, my family spent the night lying down in the garden looking at the stars. Think it was not long after we got the first telescope. Then there was the time when there was a meteor shower which was visible in S'pore, so we went to Changi Beach to watch. It was already packed, but it was fun. The most recent occasion when i spent a long time star gazing was last year, at Jasmine's birthday BBQ at East Coast. Most of the guys were playing football beside the hut where the food was, and i was sitting by myself on the bench on which the portable pit was placed. Despite the fact that i could have a) roasted myself or b) gotten knocked out by a stray soccer ball, there was a wonderful sense of peace i've hardly, if ever, felt. Was being anti social, perhaps, but it was so tranquil that i didn't want to move. There's something so infintely beautiful about the night sky... i couldn't tell which of the constellations where out, though - the only one i can recognise is Orion *laughs* Vong pointed out Scorpio, which i wouldn't have seen otherwise (and still can't, unless someone tells me it's there >.<;) Nature is so awe inspiring, whether it be a radiant star, a tiny flower or even the changing light of the sun traveling through the sky. There is so much beauty to be seen, if only we would look.
Angelus: you wanted to know about wood elves? This is the desciption from the Grey Company -
Although wood elves are descended from the same stock as the other elves, they are far more primitive than their kin. Sylvan elves, by their very nature, seem more prone to violence than their civilized cousins. Their muscles are larger, their complexions more florid. They have yellow to coppery-red hair, which contrasts with their lightly tanned skin. Their eyes are generally light brown, although bright green is not uncommon.
Wood Elves do not care about the proceedings in the outer world; only when such acts imapact their realm do the wood elves take interest. Even then, that interest is only in removing the nuisance and in returning to the wildlands as quickly as possible. Only other elves can break their solitude without suffering potential death.
If you want to find out about the other elven subraces, follow this link.
The following test is brought to you from a link on Claire's Frodolicious blog XD
I Am A: Lawful Good Elf Ranger Bard
Alignment: Lawful Good characters are the epitome of all that is just and good. They believe in order and governments that work for the benefit of all, and generally do not mind doing direct work to further their beliefs.
Race: Elves are the eldest of all races, although they are generally a bit smaller than humans. They are generally well-cultured, artistic, easy-going, and because of their long lives, unconcerned with day-to-day activities that other races frequently concern themselves with. Elves are, effectively, immortal, although they can be killed. After a thousand years or so, they simply pass on to the next plane of existance.
Primary Class: Rangers are the defenders of nature and the elements. They are in tune with the Earth, and work to keep it safe and healthy.
Secondary Class: Bards are the entertainers. They sing, dance, and play instruments to make other people happy, and, frequently, make money. They also tend to dabble in magic a bit.
Deity: Mielikki is the Neutral Good goddess of the forest and autumn. She is also known as the Lady of the Forest, and is the Patron of Rangers. Her followers are devoted to nature, and believe in the positive and outreaching elements of it. They use light armor, and a variety of weapons suitable for hunting, which they are quite skilled at. Mielikki's symbol is a unicorn head.
*reads Ranger description* Miss Lian would approve =P
Got dragged out again today. Went to Taka, quite coincedentally at the same time as Chris :D Synchrony strikes again! Didn't meet, though. i think we'd left Pasta Cafe when you cme down. At any rate, we were sitting right inside, beside the high frosted windows at the back of the restaurant, so passers by couldn't see us ^^ Glad the blood test wasn't too bad *pat* At least you got to go to Kino afterwards ;)
Sis and mom then proceeded to drag me to Wisma. Got a pink glittery lipgloss from Maybelline, because Isetan was having a promotion ^_^ *grin* Who says feminists can't like girly stuff :P Sis bought another one so we could get the free gift (have to purchase or above, then you get a free pouch with a nail polish, eyeshadow pencil and a lipstick - not bad value.) The nailpolish even matches the lipgloss colour i chose ^^ heh, at times like this i rejoice at being born a girl XD
After walking around a bit, mom decided to go to Centrepoint. Intended for dad to meet us after work, but he still wasn't done by about 8 something, so we took a cab home. Got home at a quarter to 9, and continued on the TAC calender pic. i'm so behind schedule! meep. Hope Stacey doesn't mind too much... Feel bad, because apparently a few people who had promised to do the previous months' art pulled out at the last min, and she sounded a bit upset about it. Better get the drawing done tonight - or tomorrow latest, and CG it. Have been having a bit of trouble getting the drawing right. Scrapped the first one, and had to redraw the body in the new pic several times =.= Why do i have to be so perfectionistic about my art? Not that the results are ever perfect, anyway... Even if i do quite like some of them :P eheh, i have no shame XP
While at the 6th floor of Robinsons - the home and kitchen wares floor - my sis saw a cutlery and dish set with the brand Alice Wong *huge grin* Mom brought one to give as a present. heh, i can boast that my sis has her own homeware brand ;P
Something i learned while watching CNA: Bats always fly to the left when exiting a cave ^^ Except if the cave has a wall on that side in front of the opening, i suppose XD
At M&S, saw a girl carrying a furry dusty pink shoulder bag. Most furry things are cute, but this one... To be frank, the first thing it brought to mind was roadkill o_O;
On a less gory note, while on the way to Taka, saw a man on a bicycle just outside Mandarin Gardens, with his dog sitting in the basket attatched to the handlebars ^o^ Was sitting quietly with two paws perched on the edge. So adorable! Wish i had my camera with me :/ Think it was a Jack Russel, but might be wrong... not too familiar with canine breeds. At the zebra crossing, the little dog seemed to look both ways first, as if making sure it was safe for his master to cycle across =D ~sigh~ If only Brownie was that docile... He'd probably jump out of the basket and try to attack all the passing cars =.=;;
Most notable event of the day: signed up for an Illustration workshop, starting on the 18th of March. 2 or 3 days after the pyjama party ;D *grins at fellow hobbits* Japanese will be restarting that week too ^^; The design course will only be for one month, but it's twice a week... 7-10p.m., at Marina Square o_O Have no idea why, but i've never liked the Marina area... Don't like Suntec and Marina Square. Sis jokes that i was a basket of kittens drowned in the Marina area in my previous life ^^; Ah well, no choice about the location.
Wish Mae could have joined too, but the lucky girl will be on holiday. Take lots of photos =) The beautiful scenery and architecture should give you plenty of inspiration! heh, i will be soon going abroad too, but for a wedding. Sort of dreading being dragged around all the shopping malls, as i fear my mom will do after the said wedding =.= Just my luck that i happen to be one of the few females who doesn't particularly enjoy shopping. Hope that we can bring my sister's laptop over. Will die without Net access for two weeks! Sad, how much i've come to depend on computers...
Angelus, thanks for the encouragement =) *lol* my moods are something like the economic cycles - recession, through, upturn, peak, recession... XD
Speaking about encouragement, thanks for yours, Chris :) *lol* i remember that Little Lulu cartoon too - couldn't stand her! Very different in terms of personality (and obviously appearance XD) from the Final Fantasy Lulu. *grin* Am happy that the Ratal pics are more or less finished (except Laire's) but i need to make some adjustments to the colours... Might rewrite the start of the last Ratal entry i made too.
Nothing else to add... except more quiz results XP Some were from Chris' blog. *laughs* Should join QAA - Quiz Addicts Anonymous XD
heh, i liked this quote XD Was also one of the only non slashy ones =P
Helen of Troy
No one knows a goddamn thing about you (including that you are not actually Helen of Troy but Helen of Athens) except that you're gorgeous and entire city-states would go to war for you. Too bad that you'll be immortilized as having the unfortunate distinction as the bitch who destroyed entire cities... kinda like Godzilla.
heh, quite appropriate - i like sherbets and sorbets more than ice cream ^o^
You are - Glacier. Elegant and enchanting, you are often mistaken as cold through and through- though it is all a matter of interpretation. You are strong and it takes allot to make you melt. You can be insensitive but you have an air of stillness,calm and wisdom about you...you are the winter solstice.
Finally got the *insert expletive of choice here* comments function to work... sort of... after a couple of hours. It does not like Pitas, it seems -_-; Added links to Cherry's and Kerri's blogs ^_^
Claire got broadband! *joins her in doing happy dance* Congrats *grin* And thank you for the e-mail. *hug* You have been and are a great friend, and i'm glad that i've gotten to know you better :)
Chris, you weren't kidding when you said it was a long post ;P But it was entertaining :D *laughs* The Tolkein Goes Corporate part was funny! And you're not weird; i shall thwack anyone who says otherwise with my Metal Ruler of Doom XD heh, the Elrond & Agent Smith plushies are cute. i came across the Elrond quiz quite by chance, actually - was one of the Recently Added quizzes at the time. Fate? ;D
Finally finished and uploaded the 2 Dans pic. Did a very fast CGing (by my snail-like standards xP) the day of the V-day gathering. Finished just before that, in fact ^^
Suddenly felt like drawing Lulu from FFX last Sunday night... er, Monday morning :P Spent ages looking for good ref pics. Most were too small to show her costume details. Trying to draw with more details now. Influnced by Anyasy ;P She's really amazing.
And just a few minutes ago (from the time i'm typing this,) i uploaded the other 5 Ratal headshots ^_^ Click here Will need to make another one, now that we have another member... Got to finish the TAC calender submission first, though ^^;
Now some things that happened over the last few days...
Saturday the 15th:
Finally bought and started reading the FotR. Sis bought the other two books, so i won't have to get those :P Haven't really read much yet, but already a lot of differences from the film adaptation can be noticed. Most notably to me, there's actually a 12 year time lapse between Bilbo's birthday party, and the day Frodo sets out to destroy the ring. In the movie it seems like it happens much faster ^^ Ah well, they can't include every detail in the film - it just wouldn't be feasible, and many times it is not totally necessary. Bought the book from Kino at Bugis. Happened to meet Jonathan from S11 there with his sis. He saw me first, not surprisingly, since i'm quite oblivious to my surroundings... 'Tis a wonder that i haven't dented any lamp posts before :P Though i do tend to not see steps, from time to time *embarrassed* And usually in the presence of fairly large crowds. heh, maybe that's why people sometimes tell me that i'm very down-to-earth XD
Sunday the 16th
Nothing much... Chinese brush painting class in he afternoon. Continued the koi piece. Am of the opinion that they resemble aquatic cows, because of the way i drew the patches ^^;
Monday the 17th
hmm, what did i do? oh, went wadding in the pool of self-pity ^^;; But i had some great friends to pull me out ;) Cait started AP.
Tuesday the 18th
Dragged out of the house. Coloured a few of the Ratal headshots. Didn't do much...
Wednesday the 19th
Spent most of the day on the comp. Made a long post at Ratal, which i now realise is actually void ^^;, and continued CGing. Note to self: Re-read previous posts very carefully next time >.<; Added the comments function.
Thursday the 20th
Dragged out again by mom. Went to see Chicago in the afternoon. Not bad... Almost exactly like the musical, from what i remember... But as i've said before, my memory is weird and selective ^^ Completed the Ratal pic and uploaded to deviantArt.
And of course, more pointless quizzes to end off ;D
Basicly any Edward Hopper painting would represent you. You are a loner, and isolationalist. You are very intelligent but also very quiet. You prefer to keep to yourself and most of the time people can't really comprehend that. You may have a hard time trusting people and may have had a very hard childhood (bet the school bullies loved to pick on you).
Wildflowering in the sun bleached, wind scarred desert.
But most of all it would have been about angels, those
Ethereal, ephemeral, eternal beings;
Because in many ways,
That's what friends are.
- from "Friends/Angels"
This entry is dedicated to an angel i know, because she more than deserves it :) Thank you so much for the email *hug* i'm glad i was still online when you sent it. It made me cry and laugh alternatively, both times i read it. It probably will each and every time, but in a good way. i'm glad there's a comp in my room. My mom would probably be quite alarmed if i suddenly started giggling and tearing at the same time ;D
For my part, i don't think i would have made it through VJ either, without the companionship of my friends, especially yours. If i was there for you on those endless Friday night mugging sessions, the converse is also true :) Would almost certainly have fallen asleep and consequently done (even more) badly for common tests. i'd never have joined WC - and thus met some other great people like Anyasy and Serene - if you hadn't introduced me to it, nor would i have had anyone to squeal over anime and cute bishies with, or complain about Misao and Miaka to, or to taunt a certain flouncing fairy with ;D Your constant and unwavering encouragement helped me greatly with my art and writing, even if you didn't know it. And i might have died of boredom during those awfully long Bugsy rehearsals, if i hadn't had you and a few other wonderful people, like Saida, Cherry and Vong to talk to. You were also there to reassure me all those times after Econs and Lit tests, when i was convinced (yet again) that i'd fail. In the event that i did do badly, you always tried to cheer me up. And other than Claire and Mae, there's nobody else whom i can really tell terrible puns to, without eliciting tortured groans or inciting threats of physical harm from ;P
The problems haven't and won't suddenly vapourise; but knowing that there are people like you in my life somehow does make them easier to bear. Maybe this illness is good for something - otherwise i might never have appreciated just how beautiful, boundless and compassionate certain human hearts can be.
A friend like you is worth more than any number of pricks from stubborn fishing wires - and even more than a million botched IA lines ;D
Before signing off, here's something i found yesterday that i thought might interest you ;)
Which Elrond Are you?
As the sweet, kind and gentle angel of light, Serael, you do not enjoy violence at all. You are pacifistic and good in nature. You dream of a day of when the earth shall be at peace, but since that is way off, you decided doing good deeds is all right. Your color is white so you are pure of heart. Your elemental power consists of light, the healer of all! Unless of course you touch Lexiel, then that's a different story. ^_^
Not sure about the optimist part... part of the time, at least.
You are Fiery sue!
Fiesty and quick, you're one Mary Sue *nobody* screws with (except possibly any really hot canon characters that happen to be lying around. *cough*legolas*cough*). Okay, so you've got a heck of a temper, but hey, everyone else seems to find it endearing. And if they don't, then you've always got that black belt in karate/scary-looking dagger/powerful machine gun to convince them otherwise...
Your immortal soul is...
You love song and stories of old, as well as beauty and wandering. You can survive alone and prefer to be alone, but you can also survive in the presence of society: but only barely. You love peace but will fight when need be.
Will probably make a 'proper' entry later tonight, but i felt like noting down some of my thoughts now... Just rambles, but that's what a journal's for isn't it? ^^ Don't worry about me, i'll get out of this swamp of self-pitying soon... Just need to vent a bit.
Had a talk with my mom this afternoon about friends and school; started out with her asking what course i want to do since i'll have to decide soon, the A-level results being due soon. Later on, i started thinking back on my friends from Secondary school... We - those of us who were closer, at least - used to hug, tickle, gossip and sit on each other, and hug or kiss each other on the head when saying good bye for the day. In some ways i felt much closer to my upper sec class than i did to my JC class. It's not that i didn't make any good friends in VJ. i think i was/am closer to a few of the latter than i was to most of my TK friends, really... but there was a lightheartedness, carefreeness which just wasn't there when i left TK. As strange as it sounds, i missed hugging people. Won't go up and simply throw my arms around strangers, of course... Somehow i just couldn't behave the same way around my JC friends. Maybe it's because they had a different impression of me. People there always seemed to think that i'm a very serious person, for some reason... It's true, perhaps, but only some of the time, and especially if i don't know them well. Maybe it's also because my physical condition wasn't so bad, or at least not so apparent then, so my then schoolmates didn't feel they had to walk on eggshells around me. Please don't misunderstand - i am very grateful for the concern those in VJ showed me.
But it was also frustrating at times. i may have needed the extra help, but i didn't want to need it. No matter how others tried not to make a big deal out of it, i did feel it created a barrier between us. How could it not? i can't do so many things with them that 'normal' friends would... Can't go out on the spur of the moment, can't walk to Siglap or over Orchard Road with them, can't go cycling or bowling or swimmming... heck, i can't even get up without help if i sit on the floor. Even if they didn't say anything, it feels pathetic not to be able to do all these things that so many take for granted. And i don't want to hold people back; that's why i'd usually turn down their invitations to go out. After a while they usually stop asking. It would be a relief, in some ways; at least i wouldn't have to come up with excuses. To tell them the truth was something that i could not bring myself to do; i don't want their pity, no matter how innocently well-intentioned. To quote a poem i wrote last year: There is no shame in it, but no pride either, and i am but a human.
Even when i met my old classmates, some of whom also ended up in VJ, it wasn't quite the same anymore. Time goes on, people change; i changed. i think that i became even less outgoing in VJ. Even my writing from my sec school days reflects this; i read some of my old compos a while back, and it was then that i began to realise the extent. Matured isn't the right word... i've become older, sadder, more subdued, more accepting of life, but not much wiser. A lot more things worry me now than in the past. Is that a sign of adulthood? Then perhaps i'd rather remain a child.
Sometimes i dream about being 'normal'; it can seem so real, that i actually feel and hear the wind rushing past my ears as i run, or the muscles in my legs contracting and the earth hard beneath my feet with every step as i push off the ground. For once, i don't have to worry about being too weak, or strain futilely to keep my posture. You have no idea how liberating it feels... Every colour seems brighter, the very air fresher, vegetation more verdant... more alive than i've ever felt in real life... but it's only a dream. i've never been, am not and most probably never will be 'normal'. Maybe that's what's behind the change in my behaviour from sec school. The older i get, the more i realise this. When you're young, you somehow think that for every illness or problem in this world, there exists a cure. What a beautiful dream that is... like that behind communism. Unfortunately, neither stands up to the harsh glare of reality. i'll probably find a way to survive, somehow, but i wonder if i'll ever truly live. People have judged me my whole life, just based on appearances. Whenever i go out, people stare at me. Not just the children, either. Some don't even have the grace to look embarrassed or turn away if i meet their eyes. It never really bothered me, or at least that's what i told my family all these years. Yet i suppose it must, or i wouldn't want to be 'normal' so badly...
But we don't always get what we want.
Time and time again, i've said that i don't care,
That i'm immune to gloom, that i'm hard, through and through.
But everytime it matters, all my words desert me,
So anyone can hurt me; and they do.
So what happens now?
(Another suitcase in another hall)
So what happens now?
(Take your picture off another wall)
Where am i going to?
(You'll get by, you always have before)
Where am i going to?
Don't ask anymore.
- "Another Picture in Another Hall", Evita
Met up with Chris, Claire & Shuli ^_^ T'was nice to see them again. Haven't seen Shuli since prom... Haven't seen most of my friends since then, except for the WC bunch :D Wish Angelus and Dodo could've made it, but it was still fun. *grin* The pj party sounds like a lot of fun :D Shall bring lots of pretty glittery things XD ah, it's occassions like this when i love being a girl...
Not in a real blogging mood, so i shall fill space by posting quiz results. Some of these were sighted on Angelus', Anyasy's and Claire's blogs, and some were found directly from Quizilla itself.
You are a wise elf.
You are most like Galadriel. Pure, fair and beleive it or not - you will never die! You can be a tad annoying at times though, what with your mirror polishing and talking in that weird whispery voice. But hey, I respect you! Oh and if you are a guy..you are probably gay!! No offence.
It's that time of the year again - the day when couples the world over unite, to celebrate their love for their special someone's, by buying overpriced confectionaries and flowers. i think it's so sad, how commercialised the occassion has become. Well, not just Valentines' Day - practically every holiday there is. Don't worry, this isn't going to turn into a rant about the increasingly jaded and materialistic state of modern societies ;P
Spent the day slowly making v-day presents... Hope the receipients like them ^^ Have acquired many pricks in my fingers after all the wire-manipulation ^o^ Quite used to it by now, though. Anyway, it's easier to work with fishing wire than thread or plastic cords, in my experiance. Never got the hang of tying the plastic cord ends. One more to piece to go... hmm, probably do it tomorrow... later today, technically :P
hmm, nothing much to say about the day. Shall therefore comment on friends' blogs ;P
Don't know if you'll read this, but i hope you feel better now, and that your mom's coping alright. Your brother probably doesn't realise the impact of his words and actions... Hopefully he'll mature and realise how blessed he is.
*laughs at the V day pic* heh, i found the excerp rather... *ahem* myself ^^ Even if it wasn't meant to be slashy, there's certainly enough evidence to support a suggestion that it is... Lovely description of your walk, btw :) And i fully agree with your conclusion ;D Happiness doesn't have to depend on having a significant other... i think that if a person can't make him or herself happy, he or she isn't going to find it even if they get into a relationship. Not a long lasting happiness, at least. The soup sounds good... *drools* ~sigh~ If only it wasn't at Suntec... i have an intense dislike for that place, for some unknown reason ^^
Cookies!! XD *drools some more* Don't worry too much about the A's... i mean, it's natural to, but the results are already decided, so there's no point in fretting ;) Anyway, you should do fine, so... *sings*
Try not to worry,
Try not to let all your problems upset you;
Don't you know everything's fine, yes, everything's alright
;D Take it easy, yeah?
Hey girl :) Ganatte with your costume! And careful with that scissors ^^ In case i don't meet you online tonight, hope you have a blast at cosplaying, and may you sell many bookmarks and posters ;D See ya soon! And if you have time, don't forget to post at Ratal ;P
Okay, shall go check my mail, then sleep... To close, i'll add a poem i wrote last year (16th February 2002) Some people might have seen this before...
Valentine's Day, Friendship Day,
Buy-your-girl-overpriced-bouquets Day -
But if you really want to make her sing,
Buy her this 000 ring!
Who cares if i's just a chip of a stone?
Isn't it worth it to make her your own?
For what can be more romantic than
A hollow circle that cost you ten grand?
She'll accept you with a happy sigh;
Money's one thing that love can't buy.
Cupid's turned cashier in this modern age,
Seems archery didn't bring much in terms of wage.
Unromantic? Perhaps, but definitely not
As those who think that love can be bought.
heh, haven't updated in about 10 days ^^; hmm, not sure if this will be a long entry or not at this point... we shall see :P Some shortish recaps of what's been happening since the last post... mainly the most interesting/amusing/noteable things of the day.
Monday the 3rd
Can't remember what really happened. Probably went out... *Finally* played Warcraft III for the first time, despite having brought it about six months ago ^^; Was busy with school then... Anyway, after a few hours of playing, i came to the conclusion that i suck at gaming ^_^;; heh, the only reason i wanted to play was to see the graphics XD They are very pretty... well, except for the monsters and decaying corpses ^^;;; Will stick with Sim City and stuff like that... speaking of which, i still haven't tried out Sim City 4. They were selling it before the American release - and yes, legally :P Another game with great graphics. That's what attracted me to it in the first place XD They have weather effects, night and day - oh, you should see a city at night, it's gorgeous! All the occupied buildings and streetlamps come on ^o^ - and lots of other nice effects. hee, sound like a Maxis spokesperson :P
Tuesday the 4th
Went to PS and had lunch at Crystal Jade Kitchen. Got sick of eating at that chain some time ago... there was one stage where we went to one of their outlets for practically every meal we had out of the house @_@ Towards the end of our lunch, a lion dance troupe came into the restaurant. The two lions walked around, weaving their way around the tables and into the kitchen. Was covering one of my ears while eating ^^ They left after a few minutes and performed at the entrance of the outlet. It ended just as we were leaving, so we didn't have to remain trapped inside, like some other patrons had had to be earlier. On the escalator up, i saw the troupe taking another escalator down. The person acting as one of the lion's heads was going down non-chalantly, with the huge lion head on ^o^ A bit of a surreal sight. i was quite amused by it...
i'm sure some things happened, but for the life of me, i can't remember what ^^;
Thursday the 6th
This day i remember *grin* Went over to Claire's house. She, Jane and i basically bummed around, which was fun ;) Watched Interview with a Vampire, which Claire hadn't seen yet. Well, we watched it after Jane managed to figure out how to connect the portable VCD player to the TV XP *salutes* Jane, you're a genius! heh, rhyme was unintentional... Went out for dinner somewhere after that, with family.
Friday the 7th
Was one of the exceedingly rare days when i was not online, and slept very early, (by my standards :P) which was at 12.30 or so. Was really studying for the first time since the A-levels. Felt a strange sense of deja vu... felt like it was the night before a CA all over again. heh, and like the CAs, i ended up mugging only the night before XP
Saturday the 8th
Woke up at about 7, the earliest i've woken up in eons ^^ Had intended to study until lunch, then study again until it was time to leave. But i soon ended up online, chatting to Mae (who was shocked to see me up before noon ^o^) Did another oekaki too. Did study, though. After lunch, tried studying some more, but kept dozing off. Left the house an hour early to fetch sis somewhere, and ended up at Bunka early.
Only 6 people (including me) turned up ^^;; That's about half the usual number(!) The first half of the 3 hours session was spent revising. After the ten minute break, we began with the Orals. Was the penultimate candidate. Wasn't as tough as i'd feared, but i was still trembling like a rabbit ^^ The Written test was about 40 or 45 minutes long. Not too bad, except i couldn't remember the words for "hospital" and "music" >.<; So i Nipponised the English words XD
Thanks, Chris, for the support! :D Claire too! Spent the night drawing a sending off gift art for Anyasy, the amazing fantasy artist and writer ;D Check out the details in her art! If you're interested, the link to the drawing i did is here.
Saturday the 9th
Writers' Circle Anime Marathon day! :D It was held at Chris' house. A few of our seniors turned up, and most of the girls from our year. Watched the Escaflowne movie - beautiful artwork, though there were serious logic loopholes. Oh well, the premise of the story isn't exactly realistic anyway ;) Chris fell for Allen's hair ;D He would've put the Pantene girls out of their jobs, if he really existed ^o^ His huge eyes were a bit freaky, though ^^; Was much cuter when they were narrowed. The soundtrack was lovely... might go hunt down some of the songs.
Watched a couple of episodes of Naszca(sp?) following that, and laughed ourselves silly over the awful costume designs. The charas' normal clothes looked fine, but when they turned into their supposedly ancient Aztec incarnations, they were o_O; Think bright solid-coloured bodysuits with huge gaudy headdesses, the latter of which resembled moth feelers and insect antennae...
The third and last anime we saw was One Piece, a light-hearted comedy about pirates. Really silly. The drawing style took a bit of getting used to. The main chara, Roof, was plain scary at first. Think it was because they drew the irises as small dots, so the charas had a slightly demented, spaced out look ^^ The main female chara, Nami, was quite cool. She was the smartest of all the charas, wasn't a damsel in distress (unless she was pretending, in order to fool some pirates) and did not fall for any of the male cast members - not the typical anime girl. She did wear a short skirt, but there weren't any fanservice shots, thank goodness. And she had a logical reason for the mini skirt, unlike 90% of the other anime girls you see. The most outstanding things about the series was probably the subtitling; it's the first anime i've seen where they actually insert swear words O_O Not mild ones like "shit" or "damn" either... Only about 3 or 4 in 8 episodes, though. heh, still, it's definitely not something AXN would show XD
Chris was a wonderful host :) The story you wrote was great, even if your bro thought the narrator was female ;D Maybe i'll see your name on a Fanttasy shelf in a bookstore one day ;)
Monday the 10th
Results came out - i passed Japanese! *happy dance* Got 9/10 for the verbal section, and 88/100 for the written. Had been a bit stressed out over it, even if it was only Elementary 1. Told my mom that it's a side effect of having gone to VJ - stress is the conditioned response to any test :P Got dragged out again in the afternoon, because my mom had some stuff to get/do.
Tuesday the 11th
Got dragged out again... from around early afternoon to night -__- On the plus side, i acquired a new Copic marker(Smoky Blue) and my first Triart (Burnt Umber), a brush pen and a book about beading... it's in Chinese, though ^^; But the diagrams look fairly easy to follow. Finally finished the 2 Dans pic. Haven't scanned it in yet... ~sigh~ still owe 3 more pieces to various parties. Why on earth did i agree to do so many? Baka baka baka >.< Haven't had time to CG the other Ratalie charas yet, or do the A/Meg site. Aaah! *collapse*
Wednesday the 12th
Hari Raya Haji... A public holiday for everyone, Muslim or not ;) Got dragged out of the house yet again... Came back around 5.30pm. Started working on the Gambit vs. Ken (Street Fighters) pic rendo'sSlayer X requested. Blocked out the figures, but lost the urge to continue for the day. Never really done a fight scene...
Random note: Realised that it was exactly a year ago to the day that i agreed to help Vong colour the comic. heh, my memory choses to recall the oddest things.
School seems so long ago, almost like another lifetime away... yet when i let my mind drift, to those long ended days, it almost seems like i'm back there again. The strangest things can make me nostalgic - the smell of the perfume i used then, the sight of my old notes and lit books; even instant cup noodles and the brands of sweets i sed to buy for lectures ^o^ While i don't miss many aspects of school, i do miss the people and the places i used to hang around - namely my class table and the stone tables ^_^ Even the pseudo auditorium... Should set up the site for the digital photos i took. ~sigh~ another item for the to-do list.
*glances at watch* It's almost 4am now... Better log off and sleep. Got a few presents to make for Valentines' Day...
Last note: *hug* i hope you feel better now, Mae. If you need to talk/rant/whatever, you know how to find me :) i'll try and be online at more normal hours too ;P